I am worthy.

(The following is a poem that I wrote after my counselling appointment last week. I haven't written poetry in years so please bear with me as I try to remember how words work and how to let them flow.)

"Bear with me"

I am worthy.

Even if I fail
Even if I let you down
Even if I let myself down
I am worthy.

Even if I question every move
Even if I question the face I see in the mirror
Or the way I look in my own head
Even if I can't stand it
I am worthy.

Even if I'm not where I want to be
Or where I thought I would be
Even if I'm not who I want to be
Or who I think I should be
Or who you think I should be
I am worthy.

Even if I can't even start to understand that this whole idea
of self compassion
and self care
and self acceptance
Is more than just an idea
I am worthy.

Even if the little voice in my head
tells me a million times a day
that
I.
am.
not.
good.
enough.
I am worthy.

Even if I don't believe it
I am worthy.

I am worthy of love
I am worthy of beauty
I am worthy of respect
I am worthy of strength
I am worthy of compassion
I am worthy of power
I am worthy of laughter
I am worthy of effort
I am worthy of time
I am worthy of energy

I am worthy
of finding all of this
Inside of myself.

I do not need the voices of others
to make me believe that
I am worthy.

Because
eventually
I will believe it myself.

I am worthy.